I shouldn't feel sorry for my mother. Though sometimes I do.
She lives like a bat in a shuttered house. Her television stays on 24/7 whether she is sleeping or not. Her only outside contact is her knifing one friend to another on the telephone.
She won't drink milk and gets so little sun her doctors prescribe her vitamin d. Which she refuses to take. She thinks checking her blood levels is a scam by her doctors to get money from her insurance. Although she allows them to draw blood. Over and over. And she fills her prescriptions. She just won't take the med's. So they can't titrate the dose and bring up her blood levels. That's how crazy she is.
When I first went no contact, I sent my sister the link to this video and joked about how this is what it was like to live with her. She has been lining both of us up like a pool shot for years to be the one who would take care of her when she was too old to care for herself. Her problem was that she can't trust the hearts of others. Not when she knows how black her own heart is.
So she always hedged her bets. It wasn't enough to trust us to have a sense of decency and commitment to family. She had to chisel away at the relationships in our lives. Always trying to isolate us from spouses and friends with god awful lie's about what ever flew into her mind at that moment.
Maybe that worked on people in the last century. But people are a bit more free thinking now days. So her single minded determination to drive wedges between us all got her no where fast. Even then I hung in there with her. Instead of trusting me to do the right thing she just stepped up her onslaught of bull shit until it drove me screaming out the door.
I feel sorry for her. Not because every thing she did in her life was leading to this existence. Because this kind of life was a goal for her. To lay in bed in a house coat and do nothing is her glorious achievement.The culmination of manipulating every single person her whole life through with out ever performing any real work.
So she can lay in bed and molder.