Tuesday, July 3, 2012

I don't feel like Satan but I am to them.







What rubs me the wrong way about seemingly well meaning blog comments, is when their affect is the same thinly disguised smugness my mother spreads like radiation.
Please heal.
Find your peace.
I didn't lose my peace. I never had it.
From the get go I was peacemaker, umpire, and life long ticket holder to the 24/7 freak show.
I spent the first third of my life watching my parents destroy each other.
The second third of my life acting like the first third never happened.
Now I am supposed to spend the final third with my hat in hand trying to appease a dictator and  find peace that was never instilled in me in the first place?
AND IT'S STILL MY JOB TO BE JESTER TO A FUCKING CLOWN?
I have to bend myself around a person who's mood's change by the second?
For a life of dancing like a monkey, I/we get ...an even harder time from them/her?
I come to blog and vent, and some bitch tells me to please heal.
You heel you fucking mutt.
Woof Woof.
Start a blog of your own. Find out why your kids hate you.
Cuz If your kids haven't snuffed it. THEY WILL Lowenstein give them time. 

You guys can't stand alone.
Except to send a scout out and poke at us like hornets and run back giggling.
And you wonder why your kids won't pick up the phone.
It's much easier to pal around and piss and moan about how your kids spouse is poisoning your child against you. That way you can watch Conan with a clear conscience, roll over and go to sleep, and say it's them,  not me.
Like you have been doing all your life.
Truth be known you like the attention that being at odds with your children brings you. You fuckers just about bust a nut commiserating about something you could change in a day.
Bust a nut.
It's a euphemism for an orgasm.
It's that thing men have just before they quit humping you.

19 comments:

vicariousrising said...

Bust a nut is an orgasm? Geez. I thought it was what I did to an unwanted advance from a would-be suitor.

All ok with you? Hope I wasn't one of the bloggers/commenters that bug you. I wrote you an email the other day, and silly me thought you didn't reply because I offended. :p

q1605 said...

You know what I mean.
I didn't get back to you?
An oversight my Priestess of Pun.
My queen of quip.
CEO of sardonic wit.
I am laying it on a little too think.

Lisette said...

You're the bearded lady in the family freak show portrait, am I right??

All joking aside, I get what you're saying about these fucktards and healing. I have a whole load of comments like that, that I've vaulted. At least for the time being.... I call them comments from the crypt. They can be so so subtle but they possess something so so sinister. Get my back-up every time.

I'm gonna bring some out, one-by-one because they actually can make for good topics of discussion and ways to spot the PDs among us.

Loved the post!

Your faithful member of the family freak show. Lisette.

Ps. I don't like being called a midget though... I would rather be referred to as a little person. No offense to little people. I'm just trying to make a point about assholes - as we've all come across many in this cruel, hypocritical world.

Peace-out. Let the healing begin. LMAO!

Lisette said...

Nooo. You changed the pic!

Ah well. I'm sure you get my family freak show reference. And those considered "freaks" are usually the furthest thing from it.

It's summer, the ACoN carnival freak show is coming to a town near you.

BEWARE the "Healers" in the blackened tents that sell potions and lotions to cure what ails you.

vicariousrising said...

Oh, not too thick. I'm the starving child of a withholding narcissist and her crony. Sometimes I need a thick layering of niceness when it is sorta sincere-ish from someone I think is cool

Speaking of which, I'm getting eyeball deep in my crush over Boone.

As for this faux peace mongers, you know how I feel about those types. They have no idea of what truth and healthy relationships are.

Kara said...

"I didn't lose my peace. I never had it." You've hit the nail on the head, that's what the -well meaning-brigade does not get at all: that we never had it. When I finally walked away from my sister, a "family friend" wrote me a "well meaning" card saying that he would hope he would see us reconcile one day. Reconcile what? I thought, there was never a real relationship in the first place, only slavery to her on my part, why would I want to go back to that? But like you say, if you don't go along with "the Pretend Game" you become the "bad" guy. I'm ok with it now. I have assumed my position as "Resident Ogre". If that is the price of freedom, so be it.
I agree with Lisette about their comments being somehow sinister, like there is this underlying message of one upmanship on their part. Like "they" can keep it "all-together" whilst we can't. Faux peace mongers indeed (thanks for the term VR) Any remotely empathetic human being would listen and "cry" with us instead of prescribing some useless "band aid" that sounds good but doesn't actually do anything. Because they always say "get over it" or "heal" or whatever, but never bother to explain how. :P

q1605 said...

Lisette. I think I took it down as you were entering your comment and put it back up. I got it but I want other people to get it too.
I wouldn't leave you hanging like that.
Now I must go shave.

q1605 said...

Hello Kara. It's always good to hear from you.
My mother's flying monkeys are all grounded.
I am sure she is accepting applications. At her age they are dying quicker then they can be replaced. If only she...
ah but alas..
tis only a dream...
Vr.
Don't hurt Boone.
I don't mean emotionally.
Play with him but don't get him in a head lock. Or at least stop if his face begins to turn blue.
At least you pick guitar players.

q1605 said...

"If that is the price of freedom, so be it."
Amen.
Since going NC, my teeth gnashing is down 37 percent.

Tundra Woman said...

The Barbarian still gets her fangs sharpened regularly. Being a 2 legged beaver requires a certain amount of ...maintenance, yk. And being the prolific beaver she can turn transform terra firma into swampland in a season or less.
TW

q1605 said...

Oh yeah. On Lisa's latest she spoke about her mother being dead to her.
Because no matter how cutesy and motheresque she may come off. She can turn and rage at the drop of a hat.

Anonymous said...

"Truth be known you like the attention that being at odds with your children brings you. You fuckers bust a nut commiserating about something you could change in a day."

That's the truth there! They could have changed it at any moment with the slightest bit of effort, but they love playing the victim.

Sis

q1605 said...

Why hello dare.

vicariousrising said...

My mother totally loves the attention she gets out of my noncompliance. Such a great point, Q.

I did feel like Satan a lot, though. I thought I was born defective and evil and couldn't control myself from being a difficult child.

Anonymous said...

"I did feel like Satan a lot, though. I thought I was born defective and evil and couldn't control myself from being a difficult child".

funny how they program us to feel defective! then we fit into their little scapegoat role that is so extremely important to them so they can project out all their unwanted crap onto us.

Was thinking while ago would love to hire a skywriter who writes all day over her house, "YOU are responsible for your own happiness!". She never goes outside long enough to read it I bet tho.

Sis

q1605 said...

No she doesn't. Her Doctor gives her vitamin D supplements because she doesn't get enough sunlight and doesn't drink milk.
I was going to write she is a disgusting f pig with round up in her front yard but I sent too many of those letters first.
I'll never even drive down her street again.
Not without them sounding the alarm and calling the law.

upsi said...

"It's much easier to pal around and piss and moan about how your kids spouse is poisoning your child against you. That way you can watch Conan with a clear conscience, roll over and go to sleep, and say it's them, not me.
Like you have been doing all your life."

This gave me a well needed giggle, as you always do. And it's so true it makes my stomach turn. Sad, really.

xo
upsi

q1605 said...

I have heard rumors of your existence Oh Upsi by the lake.
Like Sasquatch, I thought it was all an old wives tale.

upsi said...

haha, I'm still around. Your blog always makes me laugh and feel - comforted somehow. I'm still reading ;)