Wednesday, October 28, 2015

I ain't saying she's a gold digger!


I am the guy people love to call a misogynist. A good woman is like a one of a kind gemstone. **But these days most of them are barely more that grifters.  I have earned the right to call a gold digging whore, a gold digging whore. How much more do I have to give up to earn that right. The tally of my divorce losses as I type this, is one house, Two houses if you count my mothers, two cars, three if you count my mothers Tahoe numerous bank accounts , a log cabin in east Texas and the proceeds from our family farm. Not to mention she charged all the credit cards to the hilt and  fobbed them off on me in the divorce.  And all the while she was screwing our neighbors right under my very nose. I guess considering the gullible father I had, the apple didn't fall to far from the tree. 
I have retained Bill Burr to tell it like it is.
** If just the title of this posts pisses you off you are basically agreeing with me. In a back handed way. Getting angry at this post is essentially telling me I fucked up for trusting a woman Which is my point entirely. 


74 comments:

Joan S said...

I was wondering Q, did you ever write about how you got your present wife? Not bugging you to write it, but I think it would be helpful, there is lots of info there I'm sure. World of difference between the type of women you attracted. I'd like to know more. Since we can only attract our reciprocal, I mean you must have acquired a big change in you.

Joan S said...

I don't know how anyone can call you a misogynist. Is that another one of those words that people throw around to create confusion. I'm not sure what a misogynist is. I have an idea of what I feel what one is, and that would be a malignant narcissist. I used to work in a mental health place, and one guy that just got out of jail was very rude to me. I was told by my boss that its just that he hated women, but I felt he could have been very violent towards me, and I didn't go near him.

But I knew that was an MN. Otherwise a normal guy with normal emotions don't do that. Ok, I don't know what I'm saying here, just having trouble pinpointing my thoughts into words. But sometimes people throw out words just to be spiteful.

q1605 said...

Believe me, Joan it used to happen all the time. It's usually from people that don't even listen to burrs act or what I write before they start clucking like an old setting hen. I am glad you commented. I hate putting out something I know is going to piss people off and getting the cricket response. It's easier to dismiss things as the ranting of a misogynist than it is to listen to something that might make them use their brain and think a little bit. I listen to feminists all the time. It's hard to miss them because they usually have some cop beating you with a billy club as they falsely accuse a man of rape.
I think this is a real video.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EA70dVk0ajA
I really did get raped in my divorce.

q1605 said...

How I met my wife? I used to fix broken windows and there was a hail storm in my town and it broke a bunch of her windows and she called my company. My first wife was born from the spawn of Satans henchmen.

q1605 said...

I got one question would a misogynist have dinner waiting when his wife got home from work?

q1605 said...

Joan the women who don't like me read stuff like this and don't believe it's true. If anything I am sugarcoating things. BY the time our divorce was final I was finding money she rat holed every where I looked. She took community property cash and bought a boat and parked it at her boyfriends house and didn't declare it in the inventory of assets. I drove by there one time because he used to be a mutual friend and he washing the boat that was half mine and bragged to me about how nice it was. By the time I figured it all out the divorce was final and courts are loathe to reopen old cases. So I just considered myself lucky to get out with my life. Even more so after I found out her and my mother were like peas and carrots.

Alex said...

I still can't find my dick.

Joan S said...

People do things for different reasons. I think a misogynist thinks women are only about taking care of the man, barefoot and pregnant, sort of thing. He demands things from her, and he always gets massages, he snaps up all the attention. But if that is the case, then she is needing to grow. My mother's last boyfriend would demand she clean the ashtray, NOW. She did it, but she was just the same as him, so lowdown those two deserved eachother.

I don't think I ever met a mysogynist who wasn't crazy. They are crazy.

Its funny you described your ex and mother as peas and carrots, lol, not peas in a pod.

I think mysogynists are crazy. When I first started understanding men, I realize that men are severely misunderstood by women.

mulderfan said...

The NGC has dinner waiting when his wife gets home. That's just an aside.

The Q I know is a decent guy who adores the women in his life and was there, like the brother I never had, when this old lady needed his support and validation. I'd probably still be stuck in Crazyland if you hadn't kicked my ass back outta the rabbit hole.

I pity the people who judge you without taking the time to get to know you and I'm proud as hell to call you my friend. Fuck 'em!

q1605 said...

I am getting so I don't understand anything about anybody. As Anna roseanna danna said. it's always something. I had a post written for a couple of days and posted it by accident and pulled it and posted it on purpose and pulled it. At my age I just don't need the aggravation. The people that get so up in arms usually do what pisses them off. So they do their thing and I do mine.

q1605 said...

It's the least I can do being stuck at home all day. I think I do things that make me appear judgmental but I usually get that when I resort to humor and sarcasm to get my point across. If sarcasm is the poor mans wit I am too broke to pay attention.

q1605 said...

I have also noticed there are guys like me that get robbed by women who are left with a bad taste in their mouth (don't go there mulderfan) but women who bitch about men are usually bitching because they tried to rob them and couldn't.

Alex said...

where's that confounded Penis?

Joan S said...

Ya, I wouldn't worry about them, they have the cure for NPD, let them work on that. lol

Seriously, we need not worry about what others say about us. I know its hard, but only our beliefs about our selves count. You are a great guy, definitely not a mysogynist, and I can tell a creeper from anywhere, I am like a litmus paper.

q1605 said...

Joan there are just too many hypocrites out there. I've been avoiding this topic but a bunch of people who called me an alcoholic ( which I was for many years until my health put an end to it) are all extolling the virtues of taking hallucinogenics. Something I too have done too but until haven't condemned anyone for doing whatever they want to do. I feel it is their right to put anything they want into their body, but evidently some people are just a little more equal than others.

q1605 said...

And the blogger in question is still promoting felonious behavior no matter how many disclaimers she puts on her posts to divorce herself from her followers actions. If they were in Texas possession of these drugs are a first degree felony punishable by a sentence of 5 to 99 years in a correctional facility. I know this because I almost went to prison for it. The difference here is I will tell you about my faults not deny them and judge you for it when you are guilty of the same actions I am guilty of. I got enough of that shit from my mother. I try to be everything she was not.

q1605 said...

HAHA Joan you are very witty...I am referring to your remark about the cure of NPD. That tells me you know exactly who I am referring to

Pandora Viltis said...

Wait what? Who is promoting hallucinogenics? Seriously? Well, that would explain a lot if it's who I think it is.

q1605 said...

Joan I logically get that we shouldn't give a rats ass what people say about us. But my mother pretty well burnt that projection receptacle circuit for all time. I have heard my mother talk about women who were sluts all my life knowing she had spent the day with some guy who was not my father just about everyday of my life.
Pandora....... if this confuses you let me know and I'll give you another clue.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aYDfwUJzYQg

Five Hundred Pound Peep said...

LOL about the cure for NPD. Yeah that blogger can get right on that, they believe in it so much.

Sorry the politically correct crowd are twittering away at you.

I know we have to try and ignore what they say. I know you're not a misogynist too. Some of those types who do all the protesting, they are up to no good, wanting this idea out there that only men can do "bad things". It's one reason female sociopaths sometimes can have an easier ride taking advantage of people. "Oh that sweet little thing, she wouldn't hurt a fly"

Joan S said...

For me, logically I know I shouldn't care what anyone says about me. It's settling in now the more I believe that. And really, they feel you are a threat to them. You are a frontrunner in the online ACON community (I think) and that scares these fakes. And really, they are predators. They talk about NPD, but they are the defenders of it. They'll tell you, you should feel sorry for them.

What I'm saying is really, who cares what they say. And any real ACON that goes there, well, may God help them.

q1605 said...

I can see how a woman can make that mistake. I don't go to a lot of extra effort to be uber respectful about women. I may call women broads or chicks but that is a far cry for being a dyed in the wool misogynist. I also don't take offense if women want to play fast and loose with me. I really try to make things a two way street and not condemn people for things I have done my self. Which doesn't leave me much room for judging others. Because over my life I have done a lot of unsavory things. But I promise not to pass judgement on other people for doing things I am guilty of myself. I am rambling but I think you know what I mean. The you know who's ripped me a new one because they deduced I liked a cold beer. Which I did before I got sick. But the evidence they based this on was that I like to post song links. While they are all aflutter over taking a psychedelic drug.

Five Hundred Pound Peep said...

I just saw that praise for and promotion of psychedelic drugs, that blogger has lost it. That's one of her scariest articles yet. There's a lot of evil there, there really is. Just what we need, bath salt snorting or mushroom eating NPDs, yeah that will fix em! Yeah right....If any NPD does these drugs, it probably will be to open a drug portal so they can talk to their Master Satan and his demons in person.

q1605 said...

I would swear on a bible that I don't care who does what behind closed doors. I have done all the stuff they are talking about. Different hallucinogen same affect. But you should have seen the way they ripped me to shreds because they thought I might have a drinking problem. I used to be a heavy drinker but at that time I had two years or more of sobriety. I only bring any of this up to point out the hypocrisy. I..... am an alcoholic blah blah blah They................... are expanding their consciousness. BIG DIFFERENCE! Lets see what a judge tells them if they use that defense when they get busted.

q1605 said...

She is the egg man goo goo ga joob hahahahahahahah Sorry I couldn't resist.

q1605 said...

And they all have had their sense of humor surgically removed!

q1605 said...

I mean they use a lot of LOL's. But I am pretty sure they think Zeppo was the funny Marx brother.

Tundra Woman said...

I love Bill Burr. Absolutely love the man. Not in the "You can bend me over every piece of furniture in your place. Or my place. Or any place" kind of way only because if I bend over I may never return, like the airline trays to "The Upright Position in preparation for landing." Especially when you know that statement is absolute BS because if the plane crashes, taking refuge from an errant downward dog positioned tray is the least of your problems. Same thing with the "Floatation Cushions" that will sink like a rock with your ass attached to it. Did you see a single person clutching a "Floatation Cushion" when that jet landed in the Hudson River after an unfortunate encounter with a bunch of Canadian Geese a few years ago? No.They stood on the wings and waved their shoes at the private rescue boats who responded before the Coast Guard even realized there was a large silver object in the river a couple thousand yards away from their "station."
I love Bill Burr because he worked his ass off to get where he is today. He is unfailingly HONEST, a quality about as rare anymore as seeing someone riding a bicycle without a Crash Helmet-including old people on tricycles. When you get that old there isn't a lot of grey matter left to protect-you had a lot more to loose as a kid. You didn't wear a Crash Helmet then and you no longer are in that demographic-just look in the mirror or consider the only prescription you needed as a young person was for birth control and now it's about the only one you don't need. He comes with no "Trigger Warnings" which always made me think the Lone Ranger's Horse had somehow been miraculously reincarnated and/or stuffed and coming to a theater near you. He calls out every last bit of pretentiousness, pettiness and "Political Correctness" which is truly an oxymoron-emphasis on the moron. Ever met a Politician who was correct about much of ANYTHING? Me neither. "Political Correctness" is now the password for "You big meanie! You hwrt my feelings!" Or "I don't agree with your opinion so I'm gonna try to shame and blame YOU for my decision to read or listen to ANYTHING that remotely makes me THINK." For yourself. Critically evaluate the shit you you hold dear-including anything related to "Reality Programming" because it's NOT remotely related in any way to Reality.
See what happened to Bruce Jenner? That's what ya get for hanging out with the Kardashians. He says he was born in the wrong body? Buddy, there isn't "First World" female who's ever perused a fashion magazine that hasn't thought the exact same thing. You could a just dressed up and "tucked" like normal people and RuPaul (who has been making big bucks for decades now) but oh hell no: You decided to "reincarnate" as a 65 yr. old WOMAN-are you crazy??? 25 I'd kinda understand, but 65??? When you make an appointment for a manicure do you ask for a shave too? Cuz buddy, as hard as you try to hide your hands even with Annie Leibowitz's artful photography and lighting and a couple professional make-up artists the only thing you tucked WAS your hands. Better hope Opera length gloves come back in fashion-and in your size.
Bill Burr is the shit-exactly what you get "offended" by simply because you know damn well, he's shining a mirror back at YOU.
TW


Joan S said...

If that's the same site I'm thinking of, they always show that picture of a finger pointing and 4 fingers pointing back at you. Its for NPD, then its against NPD, nothing is simple there. But the hypocrisy is through the roof.

q1605 said...

TW you need to check out Ron White's bit on plane crashes. He says he was stuck on a plane that they thought was going to crash and the guy sitting next to him asked him how far he thought they would get and he answered all the way to the crash site.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QC0yfREBxWw

q1605 said...

That's the one Joan. It should be a controlled substance so we could limit the intake of it like they limit consumption of narcotics. Were sorry sir you have exceeded your maximum daily intake of dumb-ass so come down off the ledge before we fire a warning shot in the back of your head.

Tundra Woman said...

Dear Dickless,
Would you please stop prattling on about your lost dick. Just go look in the last place you saw it and there it will be. This strategy has worked to restore lost objects for untold millennia. This helpful hint bought to you by your last partner, Homo Erectus who said to tell you he doesn't have your current email address and asked if I would forward that message to you. You're welcome.
Sincerely,
TW

Alex said...

I am the dick man goo goo ga joob

Joan S said...

I found his dick, its at my mother's, um you want the address? You can go pick it up, I assure you it isn't safe and sound.

q1605 said...

If it's dangling from the mouth of my ex wife he better be careful. He might lose a finger.

q1605 said...

Never let it be said I don't give credit where credit is due. The groovy substance abuse post was taken down and the girl with the kaleidoscope eyes posted something that sounded genuinely contrite. She said it was after she read some unflattering things on another blog. I doubt if it was this blog but somebody called her out on her potentially irresponsible behavior and she addressed it post haste. I really don't care what they take but you have to pick a side and stick with it. Well you don't HAVE to. It's your/her gig and you/she can do what you want.

q1605 said...

When I used to trip it was LSD-25 from the 60's it lasted for hours and by the time you came down you felt like you had been stuffed inside a washing machine set for the spin cycle. I wouldn't take acid now for all the money Donald Trump has in his off shore accounts.

q1605 said...

I get what her point was though. George Carlin said that taking acid cured him of his materialistic propensity's and his status seeking hubris. But practice what you preach.I saw a video of Nixon condemning hippies that were taking drugs while he was talking about how harmless alcohol is. I have consumed buckets of both and alcohol is by far the most soul sucking and violence inducing substance there is. The bad part is that the public doesn't perceive alcohol as a drug. So it make it easier to rationalize selling and consuming a substance that kills people while they are still alive. I really can't figure out what that chick is. She claims to be personality disordered but a PD wouldn't write what she wrote. They are good at blending in but this sounded genuine. I will now get off my soap box and return you to your net surfing.

Joan S said...

I had just barely skimmed her article on the drugs. I could plainly see the lack of authenticity right off the bat. I know we can be all crazy at times, and might even blog crazy, its ok. Or even make crazy comments on someone else's blog, lol, its all ok. But even that can be totally authentic, totally trusted, to the point that at least someone can get you.

q1605 said...

It sort of reminds me of the Leah Remini Scientology hub bub. Every one is all aflutter about the courage it took for her to leave etc. Most people with half a brain would never have joined them in the first place. I think it'a fast track for actors to join and immediately get to rub shoulders with celebrities that could further their careers without paying any dues that regular people in life have to pay. Does that motive sound familiar?

Joan S said...

That is how the world works nowadays. The church of scientology is a scary way to get that shoulder rub, not sure why a normal person would bother with it. And there is value in making mistakes, mistakes are learning, but to go so far, too far with it says a lot of a person's character. Narc's love to take the easy route to supply. Its what they do.

q1605 said...

If you ever get a chance to see that movie "To Die For" Watch it It's Nicole Kidman and I think it's loosely based on that Pamela Smart woman. She thinks she has what it takes to be a Katie Couric type news anchor. But ends up on a local cable access station. She gives a talk at a local school and forms a little gang of kids to get them to kill her husband because she thinks he is holding her back.

q1605 said...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A9y36nNz0Cs

Joan S said...

Maybe I'll write an article on the benefits of drinking and driving. Heck I can retract it anytime and in the meantime I can drive up my traffic. :)

Trouble is, even with a mental illness or PD we are still held as accountable people. At one point in my life I probably would have been justified to rob a bank to feed my family. For sure. Does that hold up in court? Maybe to an extent but I still have to pay the penalty. Even if I gave all the money back.

I don't think I would ever retract a blog posting, I will just say, "Ok, I learned from that, next."

q1605 said...

I've pulled gobs of posts over the life of my blog. Sometimes it's easier than to put up with the aggravation. My wife's ex husband gave me a lot of shit for a while. I took the stuff that offended him down because the kids were getting dragged into it. I had a certain blogger put me up to some posts I regretted so never say never. People can get really personal in their attacks ......but I have been guilty of the same thing so I won't judge them for pulling something later. As you blog and release some of the pressure that drove you to blog hopefully you change and regret can be a sign of you evolving into a better person. It is/was for me. If you ask me tomorrow I might have a different answer. But for now I am a very live and let live kind of guy.

q1605 said...

One of the reasons I don't mind cutting that girl some slack is that in the middle of their pig roast a blogger that used to comment over here commented over there and had a fairly correct recounting of my life. It may have been a coincidence or she may have quit moderating hateful comments but after that she called the dogs off. And I appreciated that.

Joan S said...

Its really hard to tell what a person' intentions, motivations are. I had a friend for 20 years who did nothing but abuse me, but I trusted her and believed in her. If I was to meet her up in the mall tomorrow and she were to say hi to me I would probably tell her to "get away from me you disgusting whore". And ex-husbands even, and I don't know who to trust for at one time I trusted everyone, but they blew it. And I am over it.

I think the key to remember here is that time will be the defining factor, at least for me. I know its not about trust, we don't have to trust anyone really, and its not how normal people get through life anyway. Just when the narc issue comes up, its a non-issue for them. Maybe its just me, I can't just separate out from the narc, that evil presence has just ruined my life, and I'm not mad at it anymore, but my challenge is not macheting the whole world and I think I've done good at being good. I need the narc issue to be real, not fake forgiveness, and I think that is what I hold against her more than anything. As an ACON I've been trained to cover and hide my anger, and feelings. I did speak to her once about the narc issue, and I feel like I got slapped for it.

But time and maybe some more growth will help her. As for me, I know how I feel on the narc issue and that will never change.

mulderfan said...

Joan, I still end up feeling pretty stupid sometimes when I get totally blindsided by someone I thought of as a friend but they were using me. Happened to me recently but the difference now is, the second I catch on, they're outta my life: no apologies accepted, no second chances given. Lots of people treat me well the rest get kicked to the curb with the rest of the garbage.

q1605 said...

My story is not pretty, but if I tell it in a way that makes people so uncomfortable that all they see is the gore and miss the lesson, I am not doing what I set out to do. I refuse to have the life I had and not tell people it could happen to any one. Even you. But being able to tell folks and not make them too squeamish is not easy. The closer I get to conveying the real experience the more it looks like a pity party. Yet I would be remiss if I whitewash things so much that people miss that we were just a normal family trapped with parents that were on the edge of a psychotic breakdown 24/7. It was as tragic to to the other adults as it was to us kids. But the adults had the wherewithal to go somewhere else while me and my sister did not. I have to acknowledge that I have made fun of other people and it makes me seem like the kid that throws rocks at other kids and then runs home and hides behind his mothers apron. But instead of my mothers apron it is my dysfunctional family. They say comedy is born from tragedy so that's my only excuse for making jokes about sacred things. I think if I had to put it all in one sentence I would say to never vault the human experience to such a lofty height that you make everything so deadly serious. That was the downfall of my mother AND my father. They made everything a life or death issue, and it became a self fulfilling prophecy. It's just sad they took the rest of us with them.

q1605 said...

"get away from me you disgusting whore" ahhh Joanie.... can I call you Joanie? I think we march to the beat of the same drummer

Joan S said...

Yep you can call me that. Used to be my nickname. Actually, I would love to tell that old "friend" that. She is so pretentious, would be awesome. She used to take these bizarre little ladylike rages, but that was no lady.

q1605 said...

I also get your indecision on who to trust and who gets left out. After a point it became easier to not trust anyone at all than to do the mental calculus it takes to discern the two. In that regard being home bound is a blessing. As long as I don't run into someone I knew at the store. The rest of the world can bite my low hanging fruit.

Joan S said...

Oh boy, not sure if you want someone to bite that. lol

I don't mind the narcs in volunteering, going to church stuff like that. And I can avoid my family no problem. But when its his family, and I'm told they are good, yep, barf, that's a whole different ball of wax. But I am coming up with schemes to deal with it.

I hope you feel better soon. I had a day reprieve from this cold, but now I am sick again, gotta stay in to keep the germies away from people. No one wants this, I can only sleep a couple hours at a time, then I have to cough and blow my nose.

Tundra Woman said...

"...,that all they see is the gore and miss the lesson...." Yeah. The same people who will sit on their asses day in, day out and watch kids drowning and adults freezing fleeing war and poverty, 47 multiple shootings in the U.S. to date, plane crashes, famine etc. while stuffing more junk food calories in their faces than many, many people have had to eat in a month.<HERE, in the U.S.
Then turn off the tv and go to bed.
And sleep soundly.

Bread and circus.

Yet somehow growing up with a psycho bitch for a mother and a suicidal father is "too gory?"
"Fuck 'em"
TW


q1605 said...

They either don't believe it or they don't give a shit. Not enough people talk about it for the public to understand what they see as glorified fiction on true crime shows is another person's reality.

Jonsi said...

I consider myself a pretty hard core feminist. But sometimes, a whore is just a whore and nothing more. ;)

q1605 said...

-My ex-wife probably thinks she is a feminist. But to her a feminist is a woman who screws her husbands friends and punishes him in court for being stupid enough to believe every thing she tells him.

q1605 said...

Jonsi I know feminists. You aren't biased against men enough to be what I am talking about. I am talking about your Anita Sarkeesians and your Emma Sulkowicz's They don't do the feminist movement any good but make it an embarrassment for both sexes.

q1605 said...

Back to the topic. If people thought what happened to me could happen to them and if they got "it". Really "got it". They wouldn't be so harsh on people that call narcs evil and say that we hate them. Those people view the personality disordered as the latest fad in pop psychology. And they won't give folks the latitude to think for them selves long enough to save their own hides because it fucks up their love bomb and air kiss festival. If telling someone that my mother set up one guy to be murdered and her and another guy killed him and then loaded him in his own car and parked him on the side of the road so some poor slob would inadvertently find him dead and he is still dead cuz when she was found not guilty he didn't pop out of the casket and dance a jig but was buried and remains buried decades later and that the other guy went to prison doesn't qualify as evil then I don't know what will.

Joan S said...

Pop culture gives the narc a free pass because it thinks they are only people who are just too full of themselves. This is true, but not the whole story. People who are too full of themselves do much harm to anyone they feel jealous of, that little part is left out. If they are just conceited then they are just too boorish to be around is all. They think that they are just a pain in the butt, not harmful, not deadly soul murdering evil. The FOO thinks that way of mother, she is just a pain in the ass. No one really wants her around but they are all the air kiss, thinking she is good inside. I know that is not true.

Joan S said...

I was raised in fear and I struggle with bad nerves, and I get told this is my fault for I could not handle my own mother. So I'm just a big sucky poo for not being strong enough. I was actually told that by my aunt. Where is the logic in that? And that I'll be sorry for cutting mother out of my life.

q1605 said...

Last week end I was watching a thing on TV about a guy named Lou Castro and he had all these people believing he was some native american shaman and had many lives and could tell the future and who was going to die next. Funny that everybody who'd death he predicted turned up dead right after they had joined his cult and taken out life insurance on them. He had immersed himself in all these families with teen age girls and had sex with them and on and on and on. But there was some of his activity that didn't bring him profit in any way at all and they were asking the people why he would do something that might land him in prison without any apparent motive and they all said the same thing. He just liked to torture people. Physically mentally and spiritually. If he could make some one squirm or watch them do his bidding that was enough for him.
http://www.insurancejournal.com/news/midwest/2015/02/20/358230.htm

q1605 said...

I mean where is the line that will draw enough attention for people to step in and stop somebody? Somewhere between my mother and the guy in the link I guess because my family stood by and watched my mother AND my father eat us alive. Not so much my father but he let it continue. My mother killed that one guy in the traditional sense of the word but she was complicit in many more. Things like my step father having a heart attack and not calling 911 until the next day.

q1605 said...

And it all starts when people start apologizing on behalf of the murderer. It starts with people think that being polite and civilized is more important than peoples lives.
OH we don't want to label some one as evil because it makes us look unforgiving and cold. It starts there and ends in the graveyard.

Joan S said...

Omg, I did not know that. I used to have to take my mother to doctors appts all over town, and I never knew the city that well, but I'd be having to find places, and she seemed to have to go to a different place all the time. As her abuse about me getting lost continued, my anxiety got worse, and I almost made some wrong moves in busy traffic. She could have killed the both of us. She never stepped out to reassure me, ever, just tormented me, I was on so many drugs, and I shouldn't have even been driving on. My doctor told me that. I would take buses when I was by myself but I had to drive mother around, it was crazy. The anxiety meds I ate like candy. I had no job, I was alone and broke, the car was dying, I was drugged to the ying yang, and mother was abusing me.

My current hubby, when we first met, met my mother and he told me mother was abusing me, and I almost dumped him for that. But the fact of the matter was that I needed him to drive mother around for me, which he did. And she abused me in front of him. We hadn't even known eachother for 2 months yet. Last I can remember of mother, was that I was at home in my little apartment taking a bath. The phone was ringing off the hook. When I finally got out of the bathtub, I found out it was him calling me. And mother calling me. He asked me what to do, for she was calling him steady just to call him names, and abuse him. I told him I didn't know what he could do about it, so he took over, and that was the last I've seen of mother.

You see, mother had first class rides to the city to go to her doctors appts. and a house in the woods she could stay in, and rides back home to her small town. He took out the best steaks for her to eat. She was treated like a queen. But all she wanted to do was abuse, that is all she wanted. Does that make any friggin sense?

You should hear the FOO talk about this, its too sad to be funny. "Couldn't handle mother, your too weak and scared."

You know I almost would want to attend her funeral in a clown suit. When everyone is busy singing her praises, I just step in there, saying, "I heard this is a party."

q1605 said...

You know I almost would want to attend her funeral in a clown suit. When everyone is busy singing her praises, I just step in there, saying, "I heard this is a party."
HAHAHAHAH That's frigging hilarious

q1605 said...

About that one blogger and anyone else that is so quick to give them all a pass. That just tells me you have never really met a person with a personality disorder. I was watching a documentary about an eccentric photographer who used to tell people she was a spy. And the guy said I would guess that who ever claims to be a spy is probably not. When you are looking an evil person in the face you/my first instinct is to put as much distance between me and them as I can. I will catch up with you later and THEN we can discuss all the nuance between borderline and narcissistic and sociopath vs. Psychopath.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vivian_Maier

mulderfan said...

Joan these idiots thrive on chaos and drama because they are bat shit crazy. They are only happy when they're making other people, especially their "loved ones" miserable. It's hard to get over trying to make sense out of insanity!

q1605 said...

That's why they are so hard to decipher. It's like I am too lazy to get things on my own but I will make sure you can't get more than me. Or something like that. Like the bucket full of crabs analogy I may not make it says the crab but I'll make sure you don't either.

Joan S said...

Aw thanks guys, that was a great rant. Yes, MF the insanity, it was insane. Crazy. She can scream at you and make you feel really small. She has that "gift". It was great to find this community, no one even knows what this is. Even to hubby, it seems so unreal to him, and thinks she is just a b*tch. Just like a regular b*tch, but she doesn't let up. I love the crab analagy.

Oh also, I heard mother has a hard time getting rides now, but she doesn't care.

q1605 said...

Consider us rants "R" us. if you can't rant here where can you rant? Here you get twice the rant with half the blood pressure spike.

Five Hundred Pound Peep said...

Sometimes being housebound for me comes as a relief. I can go into hiding and not deal with the public. After having some woman film me for something that barely even amounted to a "fit" just an outburst of annoyance, these people can kiss my butt. The medical professionals around here are nice and polite which comes as a relief, but more and more I feel the less I see of the public, the better. I think the bread and circuses have made for sheltered people who live in a bubble of illusion or sharks on the make. Then you have the do-gooders who take advantage of the disabled and the social climbers. One has to make sure to work hard to discern between decent people and the ones who have already lost their souls.

Five Hundred Pound Peep said...

People that give narcs a pass our narcs themselves. One thing about Queen Spider is she always took up for the other narcs. Those weren't the people who she shredded apart. Her narc brother was "perfect". She watched him insult me on FB and mock poor people and did nothing. A lot of narcs want to lead people down evil roads.

That's sick about that guy Lou Castro. Sure there are plenty of narc shamans out there, they can bring in the cash taking suckers into the sweatlodge. I have realized there are the people who like to torture people. I had a few mental torturerss I had to kick to the curb, remained naive about them thinking they aren't getting money or anything "using" out of me, well a lot of them will just screw with people for kicks. Reminds me of the guy who called himself a book agent who wasnt.

I think most people are cowards. Think about it none of these people are ever stopped, no one protests and if anything they help them and enable them. One dynamic I have noticed, is the biggest jerks seem to get the most "love" and "submission". This is the evil part of human nature that has let the biggest sociopaths win and rule over whole nations.

The outside family in my case watched all the abuse and never stood up for me. I don't have much patience for the older ones, not at all. In many states your mother would get a murder or other charge today for sitting on not calling 911 for someone having a heart attack. Then it doesn't include the soul murders they do. I see all the evil ones apologized for in my family, they rip the other people to shreds but the most evil can "do no wrong", it is sickening.

I actually added a red flag to the red flag list, I avoid people who never stand up for the underdog.

q1605 said...

I think that's where Cleckley got the name the mask of sanity from. They are essentially werewolves in sheep's clothing. In my declining health and the time it gives me to really and I mean REALLY think back and reflect on the people around me and my sister I am coming to the conclusion they were as crazy as her. For one thing she couldn't exist in a vacuum. Not and do the stuff she did and not just got away with but actually never got confronted. So in mid think I stopped and reflected on my father some. How passive aggressive he was and not just around her but on his own, things I can't work off on my mother. Like us camping and getting rained out and having a cold front come through and it being colder than a witches breast but the other word. We were striking camp and folding tents and gather everything up and I wanted him to start the car and get warmed up so he turns it up to tropical level heat on the Serengeti setting and after a couple of minutes I was about to come out of my coat so I asked him turn it down and he started yammering about what way do I want it hot or cold and to pick one or the other. Today I would tell to eff himself and to find a happy medium between the surface of the sun and the south pole and shut the f up. But at that age just shrank back and let him bully me. I wish I could have had the ability to see in the future and would have said that's alright mo fo soon you are going to lose this battle and every other dog you have money on, but of course no one knew what laid ahead for him.