Saturday, May 28, 2016


In another comment I mentioned Melissa Rivers words on her fathers suicide. I don't know if this is the clip  my sister saw, but it works for me. For the sake of disclosure I will tell you that my mothers involvement in a murder was pretty inconsequential to me in terms of life altering experiences. It was hard times but I was  young and we all made it through. All I see when I think of her murder is that it's proof positive of what a corrupt whore she was. But outside of that frame work all I see is a bunch of grifters gaming each other to score as much money as humanly possible.
It's my fathers death that cast a pall over the rest of my life. I think it was Bess that told me her father said "suicide kills two that's why people do it" It  sure was a game changer for me. It cast a pall over the rest of my life.
You probably know someone who has lost someone close to to them to suicide,  if not, maybe it's you. Or maybe you have planned it yourself.  I hold no  patent on tragedy. If you or someone you know has taken their life ask them and they will tell you the same thing. It changed me forever.  And not for the better.


Five Hundred Pound Peep said...

So sorry for what you have gone through Q and especially at such a young age and being helpless to stop it. :( Suicide can in some people be a selfish act. I have said before, why couldn't your father live for you both? [forget your damned mother]

I believe my aunt committed suicide the Aunt that Loved Me. She was only 36. I lived long distance from her, and my mother was smearing me to her to the max. I have thought, why did you die and the other live to torture and destroy my life. I feel jealous of her kids, thinking "Well at least your mother loved you and was a real person even if you only had her for a short time". The fact the family lied about details of her death and were fuzzy bout others bugs me to this day.

q1605 said...

Peep any way you take it it is a sad commentary and ending for another person's life.