RumblestripQ: Back stage pass to the sociopath Side show Just cause you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town.
The projection thing is something I did when I was a teenager and in my 20's. It's so clear now why I felt that way, and I always put forward that I was so fucking tough. Once I started letting myself feel and see, the facade crumbled. I'm not nearly as tough as I thought I was. Strong, maybe sometimes, but not tough at all.
Bess, I have a feeling you weren't pathological about it. It's women like my mother that sit around taking about what sluts women are these days and her knees are still bleeding from giving blow jobs in the parking lot that I focus on.
Yeah, that I didn't do. My old man was super weird that way, was always saying women wanted him, what "hoors" they were. He even called my sister's friend a slut when she wrecked sis's car. Truly, i think he called everyone he wanted to (subconsciously?) bang a slut or whore. Or he'd say some woman wanted him so bad and he had to let her down easy, say he was old enough to be her Grandpa and then she'd be grateful to him for not "taking advantage" of her. How heroic. He was such a pervy fucking liar.
Bess. You had me at Narcissist. “As Shakespeare put it in 'King Lear,' the policeman who lashes the whore has a hot need to use her for the very offense for which he plies the lash.”― Christopher Hitchens, God is Not Great: How Religion Poisons Everything
I had to remove those people from my life. the ex project friend called me unforgiving and "negative" and was the biggest bitch on the planet, but then later I sat back and thought, 'she is a slave to her family", she is living on their dime at 60 years of age. She never measured up to their expectations but she has drank the Kool-Aid full froth and was pissed at me for dumping the family Kool-Aid down the drain.
I doubt you were pathological too Bess, the "be tough and stoic"ones usually just were putting on a front, they made me so miserable and they put down others for things they did. Your Grandpa sounds like a perv. I always heard in my family women were liars and manipulaters, only thing women were good for was serving men and having babies.
Nah! it seems like me and Bess used to talk in private but I can't remember but I remember her as a really nice and sincere person.
We haven't talked privately, but I've had dreams where I'm talking to you, so maybe that counts. You sang me a song once.
That's close enough for me. But I've been through some water shed changes in the past couple of years. Physically and mentally. A lot of people have my private email address and If you sent me an e-mail I think it would be cool.
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